Current mood:

working

Blah..
Life continues.. post layoff of 20+% of the company, things are still trudging along. We're still dealing with the same issues as before, would be my guess, but now with a smaller staff. I can't argue with some of the choices, honestly I was susprised that some of these people were working here for as long as they did. Some of the others, though, it's kind of sad to see it all coming down to numbers.

I like this place. As mind numbing and tedious as it can be sometimes, it's generally full of good people working for a decent product/service that can be a genuine benefit to the people it's marketed towards. I sincerely hope that the COO wasn't just bullshitting when he told us all that they had finished doing what needed to be done, and that we shouldn't worry about the rest of our jobs for the forseeable future. If this place falls through, if something happens, I truely believe that I would be up the proverbial creek without the proverbial paddle.

I'm generally tired lately, as I usually am towards the beginning of a new year. Seems to also be a trend around the beginning of the year, I get pretty depressive and angsty. About pretty much everything, too.. so.. I can't really narrow down and say it's one thing over another. I find myself getting very, very angry at things that I shouldn't let bother me to begin with. I take personal insult at things that aren't really even directed at me. It's a very rattling thing, to have yourself so.. on guard all the time, jumping at shadows, against the wall as it were. It's rattling, and it's very very draining. I don't like it, but I'm honestly not sure that there's anything I can do about it, short of waiting it out and doing my best to not let it impact every facet of my life.. anymore then it already has, anyway.

Regardless of that, I'm still angsty about yesterday and probly will be for a while, this time of year aside. Maybe it's my problem, maybe it's not, I don't really know. I'm trying to hardest to not put anymore thought into it then I already have today. It's sad that I'm 29 years old and still using the word "angsty" to describe myself, but it seems to be the best qualifier I can come up with at times like these.

New friends are good, enjoying time with old friends and new friends is happy. Sunshine on a cloudy day, as it were. Of course, it's not cloudy here so much as snowy. Drifty. Coldy. Yea.